So, Ive decided to start using my xanga again, mainly because nobody reads this. I dont need anybody else bitching at me for what I'm thinking. My brother and I are now barely speaking. He's convinced Im a liar and that Im "abusive". He thinks that everythings my fault. He pisses me off every time he fuckin talks to me. I hate him sometimes. I dont like talking to him. Its like I have to talk to him, whether I want to or not. Its like a chore. I read his blog earlier. He blocked me, so I wasnt supposed to read it. I got on his name and read it anyway. He's a total fucking dick. He bitches about me being mean to him, yet he continues to talk to me. Ive told him about the stupid shit that he says that annoys the fuck out of me. But he doesnt listen. He just keeps doing it. He also got mad at me because I told him I was unsure about moving in with him. He's my brother, but Ive only known him since July. And nobody else thinks its a good idea. My therapist, my mom, grandma, sisters. Nobody. He said I lied to him about wanting to, which is bullshit. I changed my mind, I didnt lie. I seriously want to hang myself after talking to him. I dont care that he's upset. I dont care about all this shit he says to try to make me feel like even less of a person. I hate myself already, I dont need him helping me do it. I hate this so much. I just want him to leave me alone. Ive told him, but he ignores it. He keeps talking to me. He just wont leave me alone and I dont know why. I wish we'd have never started talking. I really do. Its not all my fault. Im not a liar. And Im done. | 
